(Name) stood silently in the rows and rows of people joining the Scout Regiment. She bit her lip, she wasn't the tallest or strongest person around. She could hardly hear the person in front yelling at everybody. For once, there was more than one person looking over them. It might only be a rumor, but (Name) had heard that some guy from the Survey Corps was here. Not that he was going to stay here for the whole 3 years, he was probably only here to make people doubt them self.
(Name) shook herself out of her thoughts and tried to pay attention, but the words flew straight through her head effortlessly, only a few chosen ones knew how to not pay attention at such a crucial time. However, no one seemed to appreciate (Name)'s special...ability at ignoring people. In fact it infuriated them.
Another thing which or people mad was her...her in general. Her messy hair which she only ever bothered to brush once a year (it was useless anyway, looking prettier would probably only make the Titans want to eat you more), her untidy clothes, and most of all, her mouth which spoke for herself. Her mouth which wasn't connected to the brain which few people believed even existed inside her.
Bla la Bla bla bla, that's how the guy's speech sounded to (Name), she breathed on her messy fringe so that it flew off her eyes. There was a silence. Then another silence. (Name) half opened her eyes sleepily.
Hmm...is it just me or has the silence grown she thought to herself can silence even grow? Her eyes darted left and right, wondering why a bigger silence had descended upon the group of young hopefuls. Maybe its just me...she concluded finally, her eyes closing once again. It wasn't her fault she hadn't had much sleep, she should g back to...daydreaming. For some reason, she shivered, has it become colder (Name) thought to herself, confused. Why the sudden change of weather? Maybe it was just her...
"Are you too special to listen to what I'm saying?" The words were spoken which such coldness that (Name)'s eyes flashed open, she stared at the person in front of her. The person's eyes seemed to drill into her brain, trying to grill her alive like the potato she felt like eating.
"Erm..." (Name) said, her brain suddenly blank "What?" she asked dumbly. The person's charcoal eyes flashed dangerously. Probably not the right answer (Name) thought desperately. Oopsie. The person opened his mouth
"Do you know who you're talking to?" someone interrupted. His face represented that of a weasel's, his eyes were sunken in his face, his mouth was a tightly stretched line.
"Erm..."(Name) thought of what to say. Should she lie? No, lying never got you anywhere "no?" she asked slightly questioning her own answer. The first person's eyes narrowed, obviously he did not like this.
"You weren't listening at all?!" The second man's voice rose to a shrill yell. (Name) winced at the sound.
"No?" she repeated, still truthful. Hoping that she would be given credit for that. There was a collective gasp from around her.
So maybe telling the truth was a bad idea.
"I-I mean of course I was listening" (Name) bluffed "I just...it just...I just didn't know what you were saying, I was listening, ,of course I was listening" she laughed, her voice high "...but I didn't...erm..understand what you were sayi-"
"So you didn't understand what he was saying?" The first person interrupted coldly. He leaned forward, taking pleasure in the fact that he was clearly taller than this little foolish girl. "I will say it simply, just for you" he said quietly, (Name) gulped, feeling her legs weaken "You-will-die"
That was a nice thing to say.
(Name) opened her mouth but no words came out.
"Foolish idiots like you don't deserve to live" The person said, ice dripping off each word "and with an attitude like yours, you will die, and if you don't have the honor of dying to defend humanity, you will die of guilt, knowing that you have let humanity fail, knowing that you quit because you were scared of courage" he stood back up, inspecting the girl in front of him. She stared at him wide and watery eyed. He was happy with the results. "Not that we need a coward like you to defend human kind". He gave he girl one last glare before walking away.
(Name) stared after him, with his constant frown, his calm expression, and his unflappable demeanor, it made it difficult to guess what he is thinking...but she knew one thing, there was nothing pleasant about her in his mind.
"You will not eat today" The person "instead you will run til night falls" he glanced at the other man "I will be going" he said "I don't have time to waste on pathetic cowards like these"
"Of course Lance Corporal Levi" The second man blubbered.
Oh...it was a ...Lance Corporal...(Name) thought miserably nice going (Name).
(Name) fell onto her bed, her face pressing onto the pillow. She took in a deep breath, shocked that she was still alive. She rolled over to her front and stared outside her open window, half closing her eyes, her breathing still heavy from all the running. There was a silence for a few minutes, then the sound of footsteps. (Name) glanced outside as the sound of a conversation approached.
"So, what do you think about the recruits?" It was the wheezy, pathetic guy from the morning
"They are a bunch of wimps" someone replied, (Name) recognized the voice and scowled to herself. Stupid short person. "No wonder humanity is dying out" the person continued A pause. Then: "...oh and especially that one girl"
(Name) narrowed her eyes.
"Pathetic..." The Lance Corporeal said sourly "humanity is doomed..."
(Name) clenched her teeth. How dare that short guy talk about like that! Why next time she met him, she'd- she'd-
I couldn't do anything (Name) thought to herself miserably The guy's scary...She sighed, staring at the ceiling, her eyes dropping.
But I'll prove them wrong She promised herself, their voices still outside her window
"...she will definitely quit"
"Definitely" the first guy agreed enthusiastically
"...and if she doesn't...she'll join the Military"
Hah- we'll see about that (Name) thought through gritted teeth, her fists clenched subconsciously at her anger
"Pathetic" The Corporeal said.
I'll prove them wrong. And I'll stay alive!(Name) thought, determined, and with those words, and her legs aching, she fell asleep.
A man stood at the front of the opening, the fire behind him shadowed his face. He opened his mouth "Congratulations to you all for graduating!" he bellowed. (Name) tried to keep herself from jumping up and down. She had made it to the top ten. She couldn't believe it. She was actually on the top ten. She looked around at the people beside her, they were all taller than her, she noticed, something which slightly annoyed her. "But this isn't the end! Oh no! It's the beginning of what you have all been working for..." the rest of his words were drowned out by (Name)'s daydreams.
Who would have thought that she would be in the top ten? Especially with a background like hers. Or maybe, for once her background had helped. Maybe how she had been raised had for once given here an advantage. Maybe being around weapons whilst she was growing up, and not having that childish upbringing, had given her an advantage. Maybe knowing how it felt to be attacked and chased, day and night had, for once, helped her get to where she was now. For once she was number one. Not she short girl who couldn't defend herself, not the girl who had fights every few weeks just to prove her strength. No, for once, she was number one.
"...Our objective is to keep humanity alive, in the last 4 years over 90% of the Scouting Legion Members died"
"90% in just 4 years"
A pause as the man looked around at the graduates.
"Those of you are still willing to put your life in the line, despite learning about all the dreadful state of affairs...stay here"
"Listen closely to your heart and really think to yourself, do you have what it takes to defend humankind by sacrificing your life?"
There was a wave of mutters in the crowd, and suddenly everybody started moving away. (Name) stared at them, biting her lips.
You can do this (Name) she thought to herself, her breath shaky come on, you promised yourself 3 years ago that you would prove those...those people wrong
But still, her legs urged her to go back, to walk back with the majority of the others
90% dead in just 4 years (Name) thought, her eyes widening at the figure.
The words echoed in her mind, she gulped, her fists shaking at the effort of staying where she was
"So will you be able to die if you are told to?"
The voice brought (Name) out of her thought. There were around 20 people still standing. And she was among them.
Oh dammit- dammit- dammit- I'm not planning to die-
"I'm not planning to die" someone called, after a second (Name) realized that the voice had come from her direction Her mouth had spoken for her.
The person smiled after a few seconds. "hmm.." he said "I see"
There was a silence as the 20 people nodded at each other.
"I welcome everybody here to the scouting legion!" The man said, so that his voice was carried over the humid air. "I salute your bravery!"
(Name) clenched her fists with determination she had made another promise 3 years ago, she was not going to die. Her eyes traveled across the line of superiors and met with 2 charcoal eyes, eyes which she remembered too clearly. A flicker of recognition filled the Lance Corporeal's eyes, he tilted his head slightly, wondering where he had seen this girl before.